I walked up the steps into my house. The night was slowly creeping up on the world as it has always done during the first day of summer vacation. Aromas of cigarettes and stale alcohol enveloped me as I made my way to my room. I ran my fingers on the wall covered with smoke stained floral wallpaper. The other side had none because of water damage.
I stole into my room, and plopped on my bed with a loud crack as was greeted with clouds of dust. My black ceiling loomed over me as it always has a sense of doing. I looked at the familiar environment: black walls, black chair and black desk, green lava lamp, black bed, black door, black curtains.
Your gentle cheek,
soft and pure,
Where so many times
I have put my hand,
Is now old and wrinkled
From years of love.
...
Twentyfive to be exact.
...
Yes, she is twentyfive today,
my special girl.
She will always be
my special girl.
...
"Don't look at me,
not like that!"
I chuckle softly
She knows I
...
What was I
going to say?
Speak to me, speak.
In the middle of the night,
Speak.
Let your voice surround me.
Take me away, take me away.
Thunder rolls over the house.
Lightning blinks in the sky.
Torrents of rain hammer nails
In the roof.
Still, you speak to me.
Over and over,
Like a broken record.
"Don't love me like you
say you do,
Hurt me like you
say you won't."
Speak to me, speak.
In the middle of the night,
Speak.
I walked along the sand.
I walked with you.
The sea critters raced
to thier home.
The waves reconstructed
the sand.
Ever changing world.
Never changing world.
Always moving
yet in stasis.
As we walked along
I looked at you.
The beatiful beach
fades away.
As I peer through the smoke,
I think of my past, all a far away dream,
My family, loved ones, those I saved from the same fate,
My blade, now falling from my tired and weary fingers.
I weep at my sorrow,
The sorrow of others,
Forgotten shall be my name,
Legendary the destiny of my blade.
Death looms over me like that of a shadow,
Bearing truth, I cannot accept my leaving,
\'Twas this my fate that i deserved,
Shall I truly leave my home, my life?
My past wasn\'t without honor,
Yet it wasn\'t as I had dreamed,
Please let my death not in vain,
My life, my memories, I am leaving.
"In the autumn I sit, and talk
Of times I've sat near stone and rock,
Amidst the withered flower,
And the coming of autumn's last hour.
Oh, the times of snow,
When rigid winds do blow,
And the winds do sing so gracefully,
And the clear waters touch my tongue so tastefully.
As golden leaves vanish from the ground,
The waters will rush at the speed of the hound,
And the rain will turn to snow, I, know,
And the wind will blow the snow, I know.
The misty mornings, I love to see,
And I keep wondering where the sea shall take me ...
Thanks for your continued favorites and comments over the years on my submissions, but I no longer have the drive to check this account periodically. If you wish to find me, look to mholzem (https://www.deviantart.com/mholzem).
I no longer have any of the old resources or dead images to any deviations here, but I will leave them up because I see no reason to bring them down.
-Matt